Abhanga 3561
After repeatedly and honestly confessing a flaw, there comes a moment of real relief when the truth has finally been understood, and nothing more needs proving between two people.
The verse
आतां मी पतित ऐसा साच भावें । कळों अनुभवें आलें देवा ॥१॥
काय करावें तें रोकडें चि करीं । राहिली हे उरी नाहीं दोघां ॥ध्रु.॥
येर येरा समदृष्टी द्यावें या उत्तरा । यासी काय करा गोही आतां ॥२॥
तुका म्हणे मेलों सांगतसांगतां । तें चि आलें आतां कळों तुम्हां ॥३॥
Literal translation
Ātām mī patita aisā sācha bhāve — now I am patita such-in-true-bhāva; kaḷōm anubhave āle devā — it has come to your knowing by anubhava. Kāya karāve te rōkaḍe chi karīm — whatever to-be-done, do cash-down; rāhilī he urī nāhīm dōghām — no remainder is left between us-two. Yera yerā sama-drṣṭī dyāve yā uttarā — give sama-drṣṭi to each-other on this uttara; yāsī kāya karā gōhī ātām — what witnessing now. Tukā mhaṇe mēlōm sāngatasāngatām — Tukā says: I died telling-and-telling; te chi āle ātām kaḷō tumhām — that very has now come known to you.
What it means
A 3-verse confession-and-settlement: now-I-truly-am-patita, and Deva-has-known-it by-anubhava; settle-cash-down, no-remainder-between-us; we've-arrived-at sama-drṣṭi in-this-uttara, what witness-now needed; I-died telling-this-again-and-again — and it has finally registered with you.
For someone today
Tukaram finally admits, with complete honesty, that he is imperfect and flawed, and says this truth has now genuinely reached God, not just as words but as something felt and known. Whatever needs to happen between them, he asks that it happen plainly and completely now, with nothing left unsettled or held back. He says the two of them can finally look at each other as equals in this matter, there's no need for anyone else to witness or verify it anymore. He admits, almost wearily, that he had repeated this confession so many times it felt like it wore him out, but at last it has truly landed and been understood.
मराठी: तुकाराम शेवटी पूर्ण प्रामाणिकपणे कबूल करतात की ते अपूर्ण आणि दोषयुक्त आहेत, आणि हे सत्य आता खरोखर देवापर्यंत पोहोचले आहे, केवळ शब्दांतून नाही तर अनुभवातून जाणवून. दोघांमध्ये जे काही व्हायचे ते आता स्पष्टपणे आणि पूर्णपणे होऊ दे, काहीही अपुरे किंवा राखून ठेवलेले न राहता, अशी ते विनंती करतात. या बाबतीत आता आपण दोघे एकमेकांकडे समान दृष्टीने पाहू शकतो, यापुढे कोणाच्याही साक्षीची गरज नाही, असे ते म्हणतात. इतक्यांदा हीच कबुली सांगून सांगून जणू आपण थकून गेलो, असे ते जवळजवळ थकव्याने कबूल करतात, पण अखेर हे खरोखर पोहोचले आणि समजले गेले.
Where this applies
- When you finally stop hiding a flaw and admit it plainly to someone who matters to you
- When you've explained yourself so many times that you feel exhausted, and finally sense you've been truly understood
- When a relationship reaches a point where nothing needs to be proven anymore, only accepted
- When you want closure on something unresolved, without further explanation or witness needed