Abhanga 4395
When you feel dried up and depleted from someone's absence, it is honest to admit that no substitute will do and to ask directly and urgently for their return.
The verse
बा रे पांडुरंगा केव्हां येशी भेटी । जाहालों हिंपुटी तुजवीण ॥१॥
तुजवीण सखें न वटे मज कोणी । वाटतें चरणीं घालूं मिठीं ॥ध्रु.॥
ओवाळावी काया चरणांवरोनि । केव्हां चक्रपाणी भेटशील ॥२॥
तुका म्हणे माझी पुरवीं आवडी । वेगीं घालीं उडी नारायणा ॥३॥
Literal translation
Bā-rē-Pāṇḍurangā-when-bhēṭa — himpuṭī-without-you. No-other-sakhē — feel-like-embracing-charaṇa. Ōvāḷāvī-kāyā-on-charaṇa — when-Chakra-pāṇī-meet. Tukā: fulfil-āvaḍī — uḍī-Nārāyaṇa.
What it means
A 3-verse yearning text. Bā rē Pāṇḍurangā, when will you come for the meeting — I've become dried-up-and-parched without you? Without you, no friend feels (so to me) any other; I feel like going to embrace your feet. I would sacrifice my body over your feet — when will you meet, Chakra-pāṇī? Tukā says: fulfil my fond-wish — quickly place a leap, Nārāyaṇa. The image himpuṭī (dried-up, parched, sapless) is a striking word for the bhakta-without-Lord-darśana. Pair with 4359 (fawn-lost-in-vana).
For someone today
Tukaram cries out here, asking Panduranga when he will finally come to meet him, because he feels he has become completely dried up and sapless without that presence in his life. He says that without this bond, no other friendship feels the same to him, and all he wants now is to go and embrace those feet. He is willing to give his whole body and being over those feet, as if nothing else matters compared to that meeting. He ends by asking simply for his heartfelt wish to be granted, urging Narayana to act quickly and dive in without delay rather than making him wait any longer.
मराठी: तुकाराम इथे आर्ततेने विचारतात की पंढरीराया आता कधी भेटायला येणार, कारण त्याच्याशिवाय आपण अगदी सुकून, निरस होऊन गेल्यासारखे वाटते. या नात्याशिवाय इतर कोणतीही मैत्री आपल्याला तशी वाटतच नाही, आणि फक्त त्याच्या चरणांना मिठी मारावी असे मनापासून वाटते असे ते सांगतात. त्या चरणांवर आपले संपूर्ण शरीर आणि अस्तित्व ओवाळून टाकावे इतकी त्यांची तयारी आहे, जणू त्या भेटीशिवाय बाकी काहीच महत्त्वाचे नाही. शेवटी ते फक्त एवढीच विनंती करतात की आपली मनापासूनची इच्छा पूर्ण करावी, आणि आणखी वाट न पाहवता नारायणाने लगेच उडी घ्यावी.
Where this applies
- When you feel emotionally dried up and depleted because someone or something important is absent
- When no other relationship feels like it can fill the specific place someone close to you holds
- When you would give everything you have just to be reunited with someone you deeply miss
- When your patience runs out and you plead for an immediate response rather than more waiting