Abhanga 1900

For today: some guṇa-dōṣa of mine got known — therefore (you) held udāsa thus; otherwise — here, no anucita is done — no such custom in his house; what is to be known — by one's own mind — the inner taken by considering; I have been spurned by deva — by my buddhi's-deeds.

The verse

Literal translation

What it means

Self-blame + my-faults-caused-the-abandonment abhang. Letter-sent-with-saints cluster.

The opening: kāhīm mājhē kaḷōm ālē guṇa-dōṣa — mhaṇa'ūni udāsa dharilē aisē — some guṇa-dōṣa of mine has been known — therefore (you) held udāsa thus. Self-explanation: some-fault-of-mine got-known to-the-Lord; that's-why-he-stays-aloof.

The exoneration-of-Lord: nāhīm tarī yēthē na ghaḍē anucita — nāhīm aisī rīta tayā gharī — otherwise here, no anucita (improper-act) is done — no such custom in his house. The Lord-himself doesn't-act-improperly; if-he-stays-aloof, the-fault-must-be-mine.

The self-knowledge: kaḷāvē tē manā āpuliyā savē — ṭhāyīñcē hē ghyāvē vicārūni — what is to be known — by one's own mind — the inner taken by considering. Self-introspection-yields the-cause.

The closing: maja avhērilē devē — mājhiyā kartavyē buddhīciyā — I have been spurned by deva — by my buddhi's-deeds. Buddhi's-deeds = my-actions caused-the-spurning.

This is the third letter-fragment in the cluster — self-blame, taking-responsibility for-the-Lord's-aloofness.

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For someone today

For today: some guṇa-dōṣa of mine got known — therefore (you) held udāsa thus; otherwise — here, no anucita is done — no such custom in his house; what is to be known — by one's own mind — the inner taken by considering; I have been spurned by deva — by my buddhi's-deeds.

Where this applies

• When someone close to you turns cold and your first instinct is to blame them
• When you're tempted to nurse resentment instead of honestly checking your own part in a rift
• When you trust that someone who has always been fair to you wouldn't turn away without real reason
• When you sit quietly with your own mind to figure out what you actually did to cause a distance

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