Abhanga 2166
For today: tossing-mind, hope of darshan; saints attained svarūpa by words alone — my pāpa doesn't let yoga come; reluctantly bhakti-vyavasāya — no samādhāna; Tuka says — when will you give rest — mind runs to Pāṇḍuranga.
The verse
तळमळी चित्ती दर्शनाची आशा । बहु जगदीशा करुणा केली ॥१॥ वचनीं च संत पावले स्वरूप । माझें नेदी पाप योगा येऊं ॥ध्रु.॥ वेठीऐसा करीं भक्तिवेवसाव । न पवे चि जीव समाधान ॥२॥ तुका म्हणे कईं देसील विसांवा । पांडुरंगे धांवा घेतें मन ॥३॥ ॥४॥
Literal translation
Tossing-mind, hope of darshan — much pleading-with-Jagadīśa was done. Saints attained svarūpa by words alone — my pāpa doesn't let yoga come. Reluctantly I do bhakti-vyavasāya — jīva doesn't reach samādhāna. Tuka says: when will you give rest — mind runs to Pāṇḍuranga. ॥4॥
Word-by-word gloss
| Marathi | Meaning |
|---|---|
| तळमळी चित्ती दर्शनाची आशा | "tossing-mind — hope of darshan" |
| बहु जगदीशा करुणा केली | "much pleading-with-Jagadīśa was done" |
| वचनीं च संत पावले स्वरूप | "saints attained svarūpa by words alone" |
| माझें नेदी पाप योगा येऊं | "my pāpa doesn't let yoga come" |
| वेठीऐसा करीं भक्तिवेवसाव | "reluctantly I do bhakti-vyavasāya" |
| न पवे चि जीव समाधान | "jīva doesn't reach samādhāna" |
| तुका म्हणे कईं देसील विसांवा | "Tuka says — when will you give rest" |
| पांडुरंगे धांवा घेतें मन | "mind runs to Pāṇḍuranga" |
| ॥४॥ | colophon — closes 4-abhang sub-cluster |
What it means
Saints-attained-by-words + my-pāpa-blocks-yoga abhang. Ends with ॥४॥ — closes 4-abhang sub-cluster.
The opening — tossing-mind: taḷamaḷī chittī darśanācī āśā — bahu Jagadīśā karuṇā kēlī — tossing-mind, hope of darshan — much pleading-with-Jagadīśa. Taḷamaḷ = agitation, tossing-and-turning. The mind tosses in hope-of-darshan; much-pleading was-done-to-Jagadīśa.
The saints-by-words comparison: vachanīm cha santa pāvalē svarūpa — mājhē nēdī pāpa yōgā yē'ūm — saints attained svarūpa by words alone — my pāpa doesn't let yoga come. Saints attained-svarūpa by-words alone (just-by-saying-the-Name); my pāpa doesn't-let yoga-come-to-me. The bitter-contrast.
The reluctant-bhakti: vēṭhī'aisā karīm bhakti-vēvasāva — na pavē chi jīva samādhāna — reluctantly I do bhakti-vyavasāya — jīva doesn't reach samādhāna. Vēṭhī = forced-labor, reluctance. Bhakti-vēvasāva = bhakti-business/occupation. I do bhakti as-if-forced-labor; the jīva doesn't-reach samādhāna. Echoes 2164's bigārī-distinction.
The closing — when-rest, mind-runs-to-Pāṇḍuranga: Tukā mhaṇē ka'īm dēsīla visāmvā — Pāṇḍurangē dhāmvā ghētē mana — Tuka says: when will you give rest — mind runs to Pāṇḍuranga. Visāmvā = rest, repose. Dhāmvā ghētē = makes a dhāvā (running-prayer). When-will-you-give rest — meanwhile the mind keeps-running-to-Pāṇḍuranga.
The ॥४॥ colophon closes a 4-abhang sub-cluster, extending the editorial-numbering pattern (cf. 2153's ॥10॥, 2162's ॥3॥).
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For someone today
For today: tossing-mind, hope of darshan; saints attained svarūpa by words alone — my pāpa doesn't let yoga come; reluctantly bhakti-vyavasāya — no samādhāna; Tuka says — when will you give rest — mind runs to Pāṇḍuranga.
Where this applies
- When your mind keeps aching for a spiritual experience or breakthrough that has not come yet
- When you compare your own progress to people who seem to have reached peace more easily than you
- When a practice you started with devotion begins to feel like a chore or an obligation
- When you feel restless and unsettled, yet still find yourself turning back toward prayer or faith anyway